Friday, February 24, 2012

Sometimes I just wanna...

In the name of Allah, compassionate & merciful بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ
Peace be with you السلام عليك

Had rough couple of days and I wanted to pull away from the online community as it had become too much for me. The constant criticism, bickering and nasty messages in my inbox, private and public accusations of being a hypocrite finally got to me. I was furious, so furious in fact that I barely slept last night as the anger just twirled in my head. The anger carried over to today and it was fueled by more anger as I was upset that I had engaged internet warriors. Its a waste of time. Its ALWAYS a waste of time to engage them. Now its almost 3AM on day two and its still making my blood boil (although it is getting better).

It wasn't until I had such a strong desire to just cut off all the Muslims online and stick to those who I know in person (they are sweet, kind and such great examples of Islamic adab) that I realize this is just another one of shaytan's many tricks. He separates you from the jamaat so that its easier to take you down.  InshaAllah he never succeeds. I didn't become Muslim because of Muslims online or off (ALHAMDULILLAH I DIDN'T MEET ANY BEFORE TAKING SHAHADA). I did it because I believe in LA ILAHA ILA ALLAH. I am strictly monotheistic and these people will not help the shayateen in their attempts to destroy my iman. (inshaAllah).

A few years ago 3 blogger friends left Islam and at first I felt betrayed, hurt, confused, and just couldn't understand how they just up and left one after the other. I made du'a for them but I kept my distance for my own sake. I remember the negativity they used to receive (email, fb and youtube inboxes full of acrimonious messages) and that's part of the downside of being visible online, the shayateen have soooooo many ANONYMOUS outlets to attack a person. They are cunning as they hide behind religious veil/undertones so if the person gets upset they get mad at the religious aspect totally distracted from the shayateen underneath.

Enjoining the good and forbidding the evil go hand in hand but at the end of the day there are flawed people (works in progress) behind these machines. Always make du'a for them.

Now that I've been online for a few years and I've received my fair share of nastiness being passed off as dawah and naseeha that I'm convinced that while those 3 are ultimately responsible for leaving Islam for whatever the case or reason (may they be guided back to the haqq ameen), there are a few hundred others who share in that responsibility too and probably don't even know it.

May this blog and fb page bring me and all those who land on it benefit in this dunya and akhira. May it be a source of good deeds for me. AMEEN.

Wa salaam,


ps, A side from this episode the majority of my online activities with Muslims have been positive and that's partially because I don't go to forums to debate on fiqh issues I have no knowledge of. I love my blogs, my readers and all the friends I've made via these venues. I can't let a few people ruin it for me.  They have no power.

pps, Just because I'm online doesn't mean I'm not entitled to civility and respect. I've also received many GOOD/positve dawah and naseeha from sisters like in this post

1 comment:

New Wife said...

ameeen ya rabb

I totally support you tuttie. And I am grateful that you decided to stay because I don't know you in real life and I think I would be quite sad to lose you...

Allah keep you safe and secure in the peace of Islam ameen